Happy, Joyous and Free, Part 2

What needs to change? My attitude.

Again, in "Acceptance was the answer" it is clearly shown that I need to change my attitude. How do I do that, you might ask. To me I like to keep it simple. Looking at what I appreciate in life, what I appreciate in others rather than focus on what I dislike or detest. As it is often said, my behaviour could me a reflection of the other person's. (Yes, I can take a spot check inventory to change how I feel).

In the old days, I had conditions on being happy, joyous and free. I can be happy, if my kids behave a certain way, if my husband is perfect (definition to follow later...lol), if my career is fulfilling and meaningful, if my parents would finally make amends to me for all the negative childhood experiences (my mom did – unexpectedly). I cannot attach conditions to any – doing so brings me back into stinky thinking and expectations aka demands. The BB talks about that before the 3rd step prayer on pages 60/61 – reading them with the personal pronoun "I" was "I"(eye)Opening for me.

Unconditional love is what Bill W uses to find emotional sobriety. Unconditional love for others, for myself and for life. Challenges are surprises, surprises to surprise myself on how I deal with them. I recently reached out to a frenemy as I chose to let the past go – there are unresolved issues, but only God can resolve them. What I can resolve and dissolve is my attitude. Let go, let God. Be free. No conditions.

Yes, I can chose to run; yet, I believe that I have lessons to learn in life. Until I have learned the lesson, the opportunity to learn this lesson will present itself again and again. The lesson of letting go, being free of expectations of myself and others. Let go. Pray. Pause. Step 11. Ask for an intuitive thought or decision. I might not get the desired answer – often for me the answer is to trust. Trust sets me free. I am not attached to the outcome. I had many life-changing positive experiences when I placed all my trust in God, and other life-changing negative experiences when I placed all my trust in my self-will.

What is my choice today?

T – Take

R – Realty with

U – Unconditional Love

S – Serenity and

T – Tenacity

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